Listening to ‘her’

Listening to ‘her’

As I patiently wait to meet my baby girl (due date June 11), I find that I am fighting the urge to slow down. I feel that every day I have only a few more moments to get as much as I can finished before I have another little in my life. Then all in the same breath, I feel myself actually mentally slowing down and imagining what it will look like when she is in my arms. I cannot wait to look into her eyes and tell her how much she is loved. I cannot wait to show her the fierce love her mama and daddy have for her. I cannot wait to see her first smile and watch her grow into a beautiful woman one day.

Has that ever happened to you? Where you seem to be always in search of finding that balance.

I close my eyes at night wishing my first contraction would begin and then on the other side of my brain… I keep saying, but wait! I have one more thing to get done.

In these moments though, I fight towards what makes my body feel centered.

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This month really resonated with my heart. It is Body.

As I read through the periodical for the month which is focused on taking ownership over, respect and love for our bodies, I came to a realization that I have not exactly been listening to her.

You know those moments that make you tense or create anxiety in your life? The moments where you look down at that page of ‘to do’ and do not know where to begin? The ‘friendships’ that you have in your life that take more than they give. You see where I am getting at? There are so many moments where I thought it has to be this way and after reflecting over my life through the words laid out in this periodical, I realized I am capable of creating these changes in my life.

I am capable. I am strong and I have the time to close my eyes and take the breaths needed.

I get to choose what my day will look like when I wake up in the morning.

So, what is creating this anxiety?

What is filling up my life,
but causing me to be completely empty at the end of the day?

And the big question, what am I doing to listen to ‘her’ (my body)?

What changes am I making to prepare for my baby girl and give her all that ‘fierce’ love and attention I intend to give?

Today. I am listening to her and seeking the freedom of my soul to just be.

Today, I am loving myself and giving myself the permission to let go of the toxic in my life. I am allowing myself to dream and rest all on the same written page. I am giving her better. And it starts today.

I am taking ownership to let go of all that keeps me astray from my heart, soul and mind.

 

 

 

Photography – Caryn Scanlan

The Facade of Balance

The Facade of Balance

There is beautiful word that many of us talk about and it is balance. Most of us wake up and ask ourselves how do we get some of that? I believe our lives ebb and flow. All the time. We have some seasons that seem balanced more than others and some where we barely remember our name because there is just so many things grabbing our attention and time.

So, I am here today to answer that question for you. I feel like I get asked quite often:

“How do you balance it all? How do you balance your work, motherhood and even have time to write this blog?” Most of the time I find myself accompanying a grin with laughter because I do not have that exact answer, but what I do know is that in each season that I have been in, I have learned to give an immense amount of grace to myself.

Our society puts pressure on us for what we should be or what we should do. What I do every day may seem overwhelming for you and in fact, you might not have the capability or capacity to do all that I do and vice versa. I often take a glimpse into many of your lives and stand in awe at the strength it takes for you to daily get through your day or even get through a current situation you might be in.

We seem to get stuck in this comparison game. We think that we all fit the same mold when in reality, we are all defined differently. We have to learn what our personal definition is and own it.

Once we can confidently define who we are then we can create balance because the facade of balance is seen briefly in the “routine” we might set, but balance truly starts from within. Where is your head space? Where is your heart? What is your why? Start to look within your soul and have a date with yourself. Figure out what you are craving and fill it.

Remember, you create the outcomes of your reality. You have control of that and it is only you who can make those significant changes.

I would not say that I am anywhere close to what society defines as balanced and many of my days look very different. When you spend the majority of your life juggling a family, a growing global business and being on the road, life can seem chaotic, but what I have found is that I can manage the present chaos by creating a mental order to it. When I am centered and right with myself, my soul and my why, I feel like I can do anything. I am confident, I am strong and I am focused on my passion pursuit. My priorities align and in the end, my life comes off as “balanced”

This past year, I have spent a lot of time focusing on myself a bit. I learned how to define my why. I learned what I need daily to make sure my heart is in the right place and I learned to love myself deeper. I keep somewhat of a balance because I have found the little things that make my soul revived, rejuvenated and present for the ones around me.

My advice. Get to know yourself a little bit better and you will begin to organically walk into alignment with your soul, overall creating balance.