And then tomorrow came.

And then tomorrow came.

This is not an apology, but more of an acknowledgement that I know I did not shine the brightest light yesterday.

I talked to my husband this morning about the feelings I was going through. I laid in bed and cried a bit and then picked myself up and made some coffee to bring my senses to some happy place. I feel like I have been attacked this week. BIG TIME. I have been attacked spiritually, attacked passively, and attacked verbally. It has come from strangers, friends, and from every angle you could imagine.

Have you been there?

Do you know what I am talking about?

Where you think you have it all together and then BOOOOOOM. Hits you like a ton of bricks and you do not know how to handle it all. I kept things bottled and then you all got to see that bottle bubble over a bit yesterday.

I am not apologizing because those are really my true feelings, but I do want all of you to know that it was not handled with as much grace or poise as it could have been, so for that I am greatly sorry.

Today is a new day and for that, I am thankful.

Your truly,
the brighter light from yesterday

the modern day entrepreneur

There are many days that I forget to look up. I push and push and push. I look forward, I plan, I strive for the next day and in the midst of it I forget to look up, stop and truly feel the wind touch my face. It is not that I am wanting the present moment to pass, nor am I merely surviving, but I am striving to always be a little better, to reach a little further and for the first time… today I am thinking that is not always the way.

I have mixed emotions because I am not struggling with contentment, I am struggling with the fact that I have limitations put on me from the world that distracts, destroys and dismisses impact. I am a challenger by nature and I am a force when you meet me. Some say I am intimidating, others say I am passionate or just really intense.

All I know is that I love to see good win. I love to see it grow. I love to see doors open so wide that people do not have to worry about it being shut before they make it there.

The reality is the world has limits. We do not have everything at our fingertips and it takes work. I have been hustling hard for over a decade and today it was if the spirit whispered in my ear, “jenny I got you.”

My first response, ‘I know’.

My second response, ‘do I really know?’

Many days seem impossible and then I close my eyes and wake up with a renewed energy, ready to embrace the new possibilities of tomorrow and keeping the chapters of shut doors as distant memories of yesterdays.

I look forward to the day when I will wake up and know there will [always] be an open door waiting for me and more importantly, I will truly have the time to look up and take it all in.

Until that day, you will find me in process, putting one foot in front of the other choosing to not give up, but to only stand strong and search for progression.

Yours truly,
the modern-day entrepreneur